Before doing further thinking, I need to introduce myself as all the aspects required to understand the problematic I am in at this moment in my life.
I am living a turning point in my life.
It has been two years and half since we moved in Ontario. I was fortunate to be pregnant at that moment, so I did not had to quit my science teaching job. I was still on maternity leave since our moving until last June. Since, I will give birth to our last child in March, I am still employed by the same school board. I am retired from work because of my pregnancy and the fact that I am in contact with chemical products in regards of my functions. – In Québec, they have a program that is developed to protect the mother and the baby during pregnancy. If the working conditions do not present a certain safety level or present risks for the baby, they are retiring the mother so she will benefit a healthy pregnancy.- Next school year, I will be able to be in maternity leave for the last time (three kids will be enough for us!) and still be employed by my original employer in my native province.
BUT, my husband is in the military. We don’t know what will happen to us when he will finally be promoted to a higher rank: staying here, moving in an other city or even moving in an other province in Canada. Most of all, we don’t know when it is going to happen!
BUT, maternity leave does not me pay much. I worked as a care giver in between my two last pregnancies. I took care of two kids plus, my own, in average. It pays bills, but it does not give you the opportunity to make as much money as I would have made when I was teacher. So the insurance employment income I will receive will be ridiculous at some point. 55% of not a big salary is really a little amount of money! Hopefully, I will receive a « maternity salary » from my employer in Quebec from February until the end of July. But in July, I will only receive payments from insurance employment.
SO I need to go back to work in about September so our young family will be able to enjoy life and opportunities that cross his road. We enjoy to go camping on summer time, have a little family dinner at the restaurant once a while and go see our families whenever we need or want/can. At that moment, our first born will start junior kindergarten.
If I find a job out there, We have to consider that we need to pay the daycare for our two youngest little men full time and maybe before and after school for the older (minimum of 50-60$ per day, MINIMUM).
If I find a job out there, We have to find a caregiver we trust in to send her our two and half toddler and our SIX MONTHS old infant. Is that only me but six months old babies are too young to leave them to another person than their parents to take care of and educate them between 35 to 50 hours a week. As parents, we don’t know them that much at that age and we would leave them with a complete stranger for that long… I just don’t get that…
If I find a job out there, We have to wake up the kids every morning in a rush to get them ready for my own or my husband’s work timings. We have to prepare the lunches for work and school. We have to set our lives as the society wants to set them, not as WE want to set them.
What I liked about having a home daycare was the chance that our kids had to get ready at their own pace on the mornings, because I was taking care of our kids and we were staying home, no rush at all.
What I liked about having a home daycare was the chance that I could begin the dinner at nap time so it would be ready around five, because I was taking care of our kids and we were staying home, no rush at all.
What I liked about having a home daycare was the chance I had to have a comfortable and casual wardrobe, because I was taking care of our kids and we were staying home, no rush at all.
SO I decided that I would stay home in September. I do not want to restart the daycare, because each time we move or the kids I take care of move (I took care of only military families since I began and the majority of them moved out!!!) it is a new adaptation for my sons, myself and the kids I take care of. Also, it was convenient when I did it, but I was aware I would not do it all my life.
NOW ON, I need to find what I want to consider my career for the rest of my life. A career I can carry on with me where ever I am. That is Lily’s challenge.
I am sure some others will appear in my journey, that is why this blog is called Lily’s challenges!